I don't know where to vent out my *anger, so here I am again. I'm not usually an angry aggressive little girl but there are those days, where everything just goes pear-shaped. And I'm having one too many. Firstly, the weather is ridicously cold. When I walk to work and it feels like the receptors in my fingers have stopped functioning. And died. They might as well fall off. Secondly, I have to work this weekend, again. Mom won't be happy... I eat at home once or twice a week now. Momma, I miss your foood. Dad is not impressed with the non-healthy fried FAT shit I eat. What? I don't like chowmein. And I never see my sister anymore. Like nevorrrr. I do miss the empty arguements we have over nothing and ending up not knowing what we're on about in the first place. Good times. I'm not sure what Christmas present she wants. Now that she's older, she's just as hard buying presents for as for my parents. Probably because, like me, she wants things in life that don't come with a tag. I'd try get it for you, if I could... but things in life just don't quite work like that. Three, I'm going to stop numbering my rants because it may go on forever and no one cares. Cup of love please... cos coffee'll induce insomnia and then I'll be even more tired and grogey tomorrow. Apologies if I have just killed your happy-mood. No, I am not on my period thank you. Good night :)

*anger mangement hahaa

"Negative
Fatalistic dominated by inner fears, slow to forgive, egotistical, a slave driver and convinced their way is best."

Hahaa. Although I wouldn't say slow. Maybe moderate.

Okay, so I'm blogging from a note pad app on my phone cos I can't log onto shitty freewebs on here... I need wordpress. ARGH.
     I lost my beloved icecream phone on the same day I got my new phone. I am still distraught and no, I did not get an Iphone because I need a good contract more than I need a good phone. Okay!? Although I still do want one, HTC magic is second to best. I'm content with it for the time being.
     I saw these cute fred perry shoes that I wanted today on sale so I was all excited till they told me they didn't have any in size 3. And then they tell me they don't make them in size 3. Screw you Fred perry. SCREW YOU. Maybe I should write when I'm more of an inspiring and less moody state of mind.

Tian Ooh oh, oh oh.

I think I'm going crazy. Fucking insane. I can't sleep at night. My mom wouldn't give me sleeping tablets and gave me these herbal ones instead - -; It's like OCD. Swallowing me up. When you have money, everything you want suddenly becomes things that you can't buy. But when you don't have money everything you want seems to have a tag on it. And it sucks ass, it does. Ugh... stresss. I need to finish writing that piece of shit but I can't, I JUST CAN'T *ARGHH.

"I wish I could win the lottery."
"I don't."
"Really!? Why?? What do you wish then?"
"Do you know what I wish for? Love. That's what"

Now everyone say aww :) Yeahh, I can't sleep. I went to bed. Then got up again. You know when you're tired but not sleepy? It sucks.

I ♥ Lucozade.

Even though I get a fair amount of it. I'm so bored. I feel lifeless. Unmotivated. It's like my brain forgot how to make dopamine. I don't really care about anything anymore yet I'm really stressed. How is that possible? I'm not quite sure myself tbh. Retail therapy makes it all better, for a little while, then you get depressed again when you check your bank balance. sigh, I want a lovely Alexander McQueen skull scarf please. I want the iphone too, but I then I don't cos I swear the whole world has it now. I like the Sony Ericsson w705, but it's not as noiceee, obvs. My contract ends next month and this URL expires end of next month; oh dear. Whatodooo?
      I reversed round the corner for the first time today. Don't laugh at me. It went well, yes well... no the car did not explode. I wanna get this shit done with before I go Hong Kong for Chinese new year but I really don't think I can.
      49 days left of being a teen. meh. *dopamine levels decrease further. Good night.

Happy Birthday Steph ♥
& Congrats on the interview, 加油! ly~

Luc's takeaway. Seriously, I mess up so much and they don't cuss or shout at me. I try do my best but sometimes, most of the time for me, everything goes pear-shaped and you just wanna strangle someone. I'm working again tomorrow night, cos Linda can't. Please don't do anything wrong Dee. Luc customers, please don't be silly and just order nice simple stuff yeah? yeah.

We were gonna see UP the other day, but the air was broken. Momma didn't wanna sit in the cold for 2 hours so we watched The Invention Of Lying instead. Which was pretty shit, never watching a Ricky gervais films again - -; still wanna see UP~

I'm really tired but I know if I go to bed it'll take me hours to get to sleep. ARGH. bitch.

Pretty phone charm I brought today ^^

Okay... You can't really tell here but I can't really be arsed to show you. I want to blog... but then I want sleep. mmm, SLEEP.

Work was hella busyyy. Dee and busy-ness does not go; I got a beef dish mixed up with another, gave some wrong change and I charged someone 106.3 instead of 16.30 on the card machine, anyone wanna expensive takeaway? luckily it was a phone call so the customer wasn't there and Cindy refunded it.

I think I have a problem. A rather unheathly problem, with painting my nails. If I paint them they have to be to prefection without a single scratch, uneven-ness or fluff on it. Nail varnish is carcinogenic, that's why my mom gets so mad when I paint them in my room... cos I gotta sleep in my room ya noe. So now I've opened up the window, even though it's cold. Those who know me know I shrivel up and die in cold temperatures. But it's better than cancer neh?

There's more behind the first row of nail varnish on at the top. They're mostly Barry M ♥, I just can't help wasting money on little bottles of colourful paint.

My eyeballs are gonna fall out and this coding shit still isn't going my way. FREEWEBS YOU SUUUCK, I want wordpress NOW.

I need to use my baby nikon more. Some one come on a road trip with me since I'll need some company, and a car.
     I miss pong face and lisa poopy cos I haven't spoken to them properly in ages. Everyone's so busy & I'm too tired to go on MSN after work. Work is making me sleep loads, not that I didn't already sleep loads when I didn't work. And they generously offer me food and what not every few hours. Ima get fat :(